Hi Ash

Hi Ash… it’s me again.
You know me well—your closest friend.
I was waiting, patient, beneath your skin,
Now open the door and let me in.

C’mon, Ash, it’s just a taste,
A little sip—it’s not a waste.
Feel the heat as it coats your veins,
Dulls your fears, numbs your chains.

You think you’re strong? You think you’ll win?
Ash, I live in the cracks within.
You close your eyes, and I creep inside,
I’m the shadow you’ll never hide.

But I don’t want this anymore,
Every drink’s a locked-up door.
The weight, the guilt, it pulls me down,
I’m drowning here, I’m going to drown.

Drown? Oh, Ash, what a joke!
Let’s light it up, let’s stoke the smoke.
You don’t need air; you need the burn,
Feel that fire—there’s no return.

I’m your venom; I’m your cure,
Your sickness sweet, your grip unsure.
You called me up, now you can’t ignore,
The part of you that craves me more.

But I’m trying! / You’re denying!
I want out! / Stop complying!
I need help! / You need me, Ash.
One more drink—one more crash.

It’s a war inside, a battle I lose,
A choice between poison and the pain I choose.
I stumble, I fall, I wear the bruise,
Shackled by chains I didn’t refuse.

Oh, Ash, don’t fight—just let me stay,
I’m the price of peace you always pay.
I’m the voice that howls at the end of day,
The laugh that echoes when you decay.

But I’m tired—so tired—of this hollow game,
The guilt, the shame, the endless blame.
I want my life back, I want my name,
I want to break free from this burning flame.

BREAK FREE? FROM ME? WHAT A JOKE!
I’ll seep through the cracks when your will is broke.
Every time you think I’m gone,
I’ll rise again with a twisted song.

No more! I’ve heard your lies,
I see the trap behind your eyes.
I’ll fight, I’ll crawl, I’ll rise,
Even if it means my own demise.

Hi Ash…
It’s me again…
But this time,
You’re not letting me win.